The Kitchen Is Quiet

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The kitchen is quiet.  The garden is wild.

The house is straightened, piano is dusty, four baskets of laundry wait around lightly folded.

The kids in their swimsuits kick soccer balls over the lawn

past dusk, the goal stretches into the neighbor’s backyard.

Cheeks and noses glow pink on their pillows.

Brown shoulders and backs — their bodies tattooed by the sun are lean.  They sleep in their beds, so solid must their dreams be, while the cool night air, like a mother’s soft hand,

brushes back their curls (tousled and French Toast – golden) from their smooth foreheads.

The kitchen is quiet, except for clinking spoons in empty cereal bowls, scrunching of cheese stick wrappers, tin foil yogurt lids being ripped off,

peach pits, egg shells hitting the trash can sometimes smacking the tile floor beneath, empty bags of cashews, baby carrots — wadded up like mini basketballs and tossed — all net, but sometimes backboard too, empty jars of peanut butter left for me to wash.

The garden is wild with salad greens, basil, nasturtium leaves (no flowers, but hope is alive), chives, tender green, fuzzy tomatoes grabbed and fondled by four lush, strong, adolescent, hopped-up cucumber plants.

 

 

Try Again Tomorrow

Today’s the first day in awhile that I feel like making something wonderful to eat – light and healthy.  Today’s the day I get myself back to the Pilates studio for the first time in almost three weeks.  Today begins with my June issue of Taste of Italia.  On the last page Mary Ann Esposito offers her recipe for Arugula, Spinach and Strawberry Salad.  Knowing I have a whole flank steak grilled and leftover in the fridge, I think this salad will be the prettiest thing to accompany thin slices of cool steak on my dinner plate.  Yes, this will be tonight’s healthy and tasty meal to celebrate my return to yoga pants.

I took the kids to the Farmers’ Market where we bought the spinach – small, tender leaves so young and fresh – they taste like sun and earth.  Then off to the store for a bunch of peppery arugula and dark red strawberries.  Finally, we head over to my neighbor’s for four pounds of honey that she just extracted from her tens of thousands of bees.  I only need two tablespoons for the honey and balsamic vinegar dressing, the rest will hopefully last me until Thanksgiving.

I washed the spinach and arugula and placed it all in baggies in the fridge to wait for me until this evening.  My man – amor de mi vida – is working late and so I decide to let the kids pick what they would like to eat for dinner.  Next thing I know, I’m slinging Bagel Bites from the oven and cutting Nutella sandwiches into fours and then allowing two – not three- brownie bites for dessert.  Every time I opened the refrigerator door to reach for the gallon of milk (More milk, Mom!) I looked longingly at the fresh greens and strawberries waiting patiently for me.

Guess what I ate for dinner?  Yep.  Bagel Bites and brownie bites.

For the Love of Truth and Balance

The last day of school was this past Tuesday.  All three kids are home now excited to begin their summer vacation.  It’s been three days and already we’ve been biking, swimming, reading and eating a lot to make up for those calories quickly burning off their small bodies.   I’ve refereed some fights, one involving Nerf baseball bats and administered First Aid for some minor cuts and bumps.  Have I mentioned it’s only been three days?

I’ve been putting off posting anything for fear that it won’t be perfect – at this moment I have half a mind on what I’m writing while out of the corner of my eye I’m watching to make sure my son and daughter don’t draw on each other with markers.   It’s early morning and we are sitting at our table on the back deck and I know I only have another twenty minutes or so before it will be time to pull them off each other and feed them breakfast.

Schedules change.  Routines shift.  Life moves us continually in different directions.  My life right now is about letting the kids stay up way too late to catch fireflies while keeping them well-rested enough to avoid the dramatic meltdowns.  My hope is to get them in the kitchen with me and cook up some granola, homemade pizza, and watch them put together a simple salad of their own desire.  I hope also to drop my expectations that my sentences need to be perfect and well-crafted and that I will just get the words out there because sometimes half-assed is better than no ass at all.

Here’s to Life perfectly as it is!